Author Archives: leonie jade

5. Dear Baby

i have been awaiting for the day of your arrival for so long but id be lying to you if i told you that i only felt excitement because clouded over my bubble of excitement if a cloud and fear and apprehension

i fear that i wont be enough for you, i fear bringing you into a world that is cruel and twisted unlike the beautiful image of life with you that i created in my mind, i fear ill make many mistakes

but i guess baby that these things boil down to not believing my own self worth and reality, i cant change the world that we live in, but i hope you know that if that was possible i would do it for you!

over the years your mum has learnt how to put on an exterior and breaking those walls down are not as easy as it seems, as said in a musical she adores ‘these walls are harder to beat when its ones you helped build’

despite this your mum is strong and she will truly go the extra mile for you! she will love you with every bone in her body for eternity!

4. Dear Baby

for awhile baby i have wanted to be happy, your mum has many battle scars, many of those wounds caused by the loss of some people close to her, people you will never meet and that hurts!

one person i really wish you could of met was your grandad! i know he would of loved you so so much!! he was and is your mums world! he was a hero and as you grow up i will tell you how much your grandad clarke is a hero but i wish things were different

i wish he could of told you those stories himself, i wish he could watch you grow, i wish you could see him with his cape for yourself but instead you will only ever see his wings!

he really was amazing baby but i hope and pray that you will never have to endure the pain that your mum endured the day grandad made his departure

i will make sure that his legacy lives on and though you never met him, i will make sure to tell you the many stories of his 48 years of existence because he really did leave an impression on earth!

i hope even beyond, you will be inspired by him and even tell your own children (if you choose) about his life and legacy because his story is one that should be told and passed along!

3. Dear Baby…

i thought i was carrying you years before you arrived! wasn’t anything we planned yet i was hopeful that i would see two lines upon that piece of plastic

its crazy how life changing that piece of plastic can be!! you blink and all of a sudden you could find out that you

are creating another life

though that time wasn’t meant to be, one line showed up and i felt defeated baby. even though the timing wouldn’t of been perfect back then, i wanted my purpose, something to motivate me, i wanted that to be you baby!

we didn’t have alot of money back then, nor room to even fit a crib but i still felt in my own bubble but that plastic popped my bubble!

but i want things to be perfect for you baby, i want to welcome you into the world without stress and worry that we aren’t doing enough for you, though money isn’t everything and money can’t buy happiness, i still want to be able to provide you with the best and if the timing of your arrival was back then, then i couldn’t stick to my word. i know we would of made it work somehow, but i want more for you than that because thats what you deserve!

2. Dear Baby…

as i lie here looking down at what i hope will someday be your home for 9 months i cant help but smile!

i smile because of the memories we will have together, i smile because of the amazing human you will become, i smile because you will be my pride and joy, my everything and i will spend each day of my life trying to protect you and do all i can for you!

i hope i can bring you happiness, i hope i can bring you security, i hope i can give you health.

life isnt an easy journey baby, you may come across some difficult hurdles but with the right people on the sidelines cheering you on, you can achieve anything

1. Dear Baby…

baby, you may not exist when im typing this, but you have been wanted for years! i knew i wanted to be a mum since i was young and the day i find out im pregnant with you or if that cant happen then the day i adopt you, will be filled with nothing but joy and love

you will be welcomed into the world with a mother who wants nothing more in life then for someone to look up to her and call her mum! that is the only thing she has ever been certain on!!

you will be her biggest achievement, her pride and joy and she wants nothing more than to see you happy and reach for the stars!

i dont know when you will be entering my life baby but just know, even when im typing this now, a long time before you existed, i love you with my whole heart and i will do all i can for you!